I thought I should go to bed. But I ended up watching that movie again.
I thought my feelings about that movie would not be that deep. But it ended up still being there in my soul. Deep. Touching. Sensual. Make my heart ache with excitement and pain at the same time.
Lan Yu.
How many times did I watch that movie, I really don’t remember.
But I remember that I’ve never got bored watching it. Always that pain mixed with excitement. Made it was hard for me to breathe. Made my feelings are higher as a wave in ocean. And I didn’t dare to watch it till the end, because I would be all teary if I did.
It began with Lan Yu that I started to watch movie again. It began with Lan Yu that a few weeks later did I find Farewell My Concubine, and then Leslie.
I don’t remember how I found the English version of Beijing Story by David Fung. But I remember I cried so much everytime I read it.
I really like the story, either. Lan Yu in the story is much different from Lan Yu in the movie. The story has more tragical details than the movie. But I like that. I do like that. Unlike with Zetsuai and Bronze which I prefer staying with the anime than coming to the manga. I think tragical details in Zetsuai and Bronze manga are provided for the same purpose as what the anime does, and they are unecessary. Too much tragical details will make the anime looks like a Korean drama with all sorts of tears and pain and such.
However, stuffs like that don’t happen with Lan Yu (story). The story is tragical too, but enough for the reader to feel the pain/excitement. Enough for the reader to understand more about the characters. Not so many unecessary tragical details that make the storyline becomes fake. Things need not to get more complicated in order to be great!
Those who are obsessed by Beijing Story may be disappointed watching Lan Yu, because Lan Yu is too much simplified than Beijing Story.
But those are watching Lan Yu before reading Beijing Story (like me:P) will think about them as 2 different versions of a story. In his position, Stanley Kwan did so well.
Even now, I don’t dare to read the story/watch the movie till the end. It would be too painful if I do. Strange? Am I too sick?
Watching Lan Yu again tonight is a nice experience.
and I should go to bed now I guess. It's too late at the moment again. gee!
I would like to upload here 2 pics of my fav. I especially like the poster. It is so beautiful, meaningful, and touching!

I am reminded of what Leslie said when he was still here: "When two people are in love, it was ONLY love that matters".