Monday... begins a week... as it always does... what will happen in this week I wonder...
... hmm... such a shame! He tries to irritate me why is that??? Why does it have to happen in this Monday morning when the sky gets blue and the sun starts to shine after cold winter and I am feeling so well??? And he is successful I think, as I totally forget what I wanted to write here... and my fresh feeling completely disappears
As a result I delete and ignore his nick name... What will be the next?
I will come back later!
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It's nearly midnight again. and I'm here again. always get the inspiration of working when the night comes and the curtain of the darkness starts to cover me...
Leslie is singing into my ears again... Leslie... I told J today that I was out of fashion because I was not into foreign music except Leslie's music, no, not just Leslie's music and movies, it's just greater... Leslie's Culture I mean... yeah... culture... he creates a new whole culture for HK, Chinese and Asia in general... fans hold events to commemorate him twice a year, fans try to spread his legacy and his spirit all over the world, fans organize charity on behalf of him.... etc etc. Awesome!
Ooops, but what did I want to say... yeah, I am out of fashion with only Leslie's Culture... 
but I am willing to be out of fashion... "time is the ageless witness"... time tells me that only Leslie's Culture can fill my "other side" ... only Leslie's songs and deep low voice can calm me down and warm me up... and as an actor, he is the best actor I've ever known....
Just like J with Plumb or with x, I can only get balance when I'm in Leslie's Culture... It's not me who want it to happen. It happened so naturally. It made me realize how important Leslie is in my world...
Well, but reading those words from Eliza Chan today, I feel very sad... very very sad. Nadia irritated! She seemed to be really furious. She reacted so strongly against Eliza's words. I only feel sad. I can guess why Eliza said so... regarding this matter I have 2 opposite opinions... sigh. As a Buddhism lover, I am so afraid what we do twice a year will somehow keep Leslie with this dirty world, and he can never let go freely... he died so tragically. he must have been so hurtful in his heart... his soul, therefore, is difficult to rest in peace... our tears only make things get worse... a hurtful soul will never be released. Will never be reincarnated. That's why many of us see or dream about Leslie, or feel him around us. I myself usually get the real experience about that... as if Leslie is really around me... even now right in this moment when I listen to his song... no voice could be warmer and more LIVELY. As if this person is really standing HERE and performing this song. I've never had such feeling with any other. Sigh! So what? Do I really want it to happen? Do I really want to keep him back while he needs to go....!!!
but then, however,... it becomes the whole world's custom that we (family and friends) gather to commemorate our beloved in his/her bday-dday... so why fans can not hold the memorial events for Leslie? Why Courtney Love or Yoko haven't said a word about fans gathering and organizing commemorative events for Kurt Cobain or John Lennon????? Why Eliza said so???? It's just a way to show our respect. Just a way to spread his legacy. Just a way to those "dirty hands" people who used to push Leslie out of prizes have to open their eyes. So why complaint about Leslie fans gathering???? Fans help Leslie a lot indeed. With fans' great love and support, Leslie name is now further away from the dirty nick name "a homosexual artist" to be closer to "The Legend of Asia". Without fans, if Leslie could be chosen as the Most Beloved Actor in the 100 years of Chinese movie world? if Farewell My Concubine become the symbol of Chinese movie??? No way! Leslie need fans. Only fans can make people understand him, only fans can clean up those dirty stuff that dirty media gave him! Dirty media!!!
(sweet and surprising coincidence is happening... when I am writing those lines, The Moon Represents My Heart starts to play... remember that the beginning of the song is fans' voice and then Leslie sings... such a sweet way to show me that you know how I care, my Dearest Leslie! I know you are always here with those who love you from the heart! I really appreciate that!!!)
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Another thing keeps bugging my mind... Photoshop does not allow me to put Vietnamese words inside a pic... what should I do? I prefer creating a website with photoshop though, it's very deep and beautiful and unique... but without Vietnamese words, what will I transfer to our Vietnamese people?????
Lesie please help me. Show me the way. I know you can!!
